My heart hurts
I feel a stomachache coming on
I thought friends would last forever.
Those stupid movies fucking lied to me.

There's no such thing as forever
If your friend only wants to hang out for a few hours.
There's no such thing as endless
When you know you gotta exchange your goodbyes.
There's no such thing as ongoing
And you know it's not true because..

Because it fucking hurts
To see your friend smile warmly to someone else.
It makes you fucking sick in the gut
When your friend doesn't treat you like they used to
There's fucking pain in your heart
'Cause you care for them more than they know.
But what do they do?

They tear you away and they neglect you
They act like you're not there anymore
But you can't do anything because it's for their sake.
You can't even cry because it hurts even worse
So you bottle it all up inside but you still don't feel better.
It hurts like hell but you care about your friend,
So you let your friend do whatever they want.
But secretly, you hope they come back to you.

It's because you feel lonely and it's killing you
Killing you because you have no one else anymore
So all you do is sit up in your room and bawl all day.
You pass up the opportunity to open up to others
Because you're still aching over that last phrase.

So you don't do anything, because you can't.
You go to bed at night and lie awake
With those fucking tears in your eyes
Hoping that they could just fall out already.
You're so depressed but you're so frustrated
SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED
BECAUSE YOU MISS..

Because you miss your friend.
You're so FUCKING STRESSED OUT AND LONELY
LONELY LONELY LONELY LONELY LONELY
AND YOU FEEL NAUSEOUS FROM IT
YOU TRY TO MAKE FRIENDS BUT
NO ONE LIKES YOU. You're alone.

Even now, the tears don't run.
They kind of feel like ice to you.
You can try your hardest to cry, but you can't
No matter how much it hurts, you can't do it
There isn't even a simple hope in your heart
That maybe your friend will smile warmly to you
This time and not to others.

BUT THE HOPE IS GONE BECAUSE
YOU SAW IT ALREADY
You were once told
"Hope is to believe even if the evidence isn't there."
BUT NOW YOU DON'T CARE
'CAUSE YOU'RE HURTING SO BADLY
YOU HURT SO FUCKING MUCH
YOU HURT SO FUCKING MUCH

YOU HURT A LOT.
I hurt a lot.
I hurt so fucking much.