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Watched You Let Go

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I watched you let go of my hand
I knew it wouldn’t last
Fell onto the fork in the road
We have different paths

If only there was a way
To keep you from leaving
Then I wouldn’t be here now
Still in this abyss, weeping
Unsure which leads to dead ends
I lay, void of salvation
What a sick reality
I can taste trepidation

Am I gonna live it right?
Is this how people live life?

I watched you let go of my hand
I knew it wouldn’t last
Fell onto the fork in the road
We have different paths

I can’t accept how we die
Alone in separate homes
I cannot live with regrets
I couldn’t pick up the phone
Had a feeling it was you
But I want to hear your voice
Yet I couldn’t let myself
After all, it was your choice

Am I gonna sing it wrong?
Is this how people sing songs?

I watched you let go of my hand
I knew it wouldn’t last
Fell onto the fork in the road
We have different paths

Please just give me a reason
Why you decided to go
Tell me everything is fine
Is there something I should know?
But it doesn’t matter now
‘Cause I know I’ll make it through
Because you might not know it
But I know I’m still with you

Am I gonna live it right?
Is this how people live life?

I watched you let go of my hand
I knew it wouldn’t last
Fell onto the fork in the road
We have different paths

I won’t let you release my hand
This should have been our past
Can’t you see there’s only one road?
There is only one path.
This is probably one of the many deviations I have that I'm actually serious about.. Why, you ask? Because, shockingly, I'm proud of this piece. What's probably disappointing is that this isn't an art piece at all. As a matter of fact, it's one of my many deep poems that were originally meant to be songs. ONE MORE THING, don't read the below until YOU'VE READ THE POEM ITSELF. Thank you.

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Allow me to explain the meaning behind all of these mixes of emotions and words..

During all of the tragic years of my life and to try to put myself in someone else's shoes, this is the outcome of what I had done to try to explain what it had felt like. Yes, I'd previously in the past told someone that this is really in the eyes of one of my RP characters, but as I read this over a few times I realized it also described the year of my turmoil. It was the feeling of thinking that I was so close to someone; that I was actually their friend. But as it turns out, the closer I get to that someone, it's just the harder the impact is when I hit the ground as they push me away. But as I'm on the ground all alone, it turns out that the someone wants to come back just after they pushed me away. I always refused to ever welcome them back, but inwardly I really was happy because I knew we were still so close. I knew it.

But now to explain the story behind my character: Yousei Haotomi, 24, Japanese decent, have yet to put up random sketches or pictures of him- As a teenager he'd fallen in love with a certain girl, and saw her as his only hidden sanctuary from the bastardizations of life. Unfortunately, she did not see Yousei as the same; instead, he was merely a good friend to whom she could go to in times of tragedy or utter devastation. Upon learning that, Yousei learned tragedy and utter devastation all on his own. Just one day, she stopped talking to him because of another man, and that threw off the poor Yousei for a while. Days passed, and he finally consulted the one he loved but only to be hurt like how one could treat a perky, overfriendly stranger. Rejected and sad, Yousei desperately wanted so much for them to be together, but she refused him all those several other times because of that other man. Seeing as it was time to face reality, Yousei finally let go of her.. But at that moment she wanted to come back to him after discovering her little boyfriend had become unfaithful. Trying so hard to communicate with Yousei through the phone or house visits, he refused to pick up and always found ways outside of the house. This made her miserable, and at the same time made her realize the great pain she had caused Yousei just previously. After that, she decided she to leave too, thus both moving on into their separate paths. But of course, they both never left each other. Inwardly, spiritually, they would always be together, even if they never saw each other at all.

I hope you enjoyed this piece, it's my greatest, I assure you.
ALSO: I'm so sorry, this simple description is no longer simple seeing as it's much longer than the poem. I'm sorry for that.
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hollyleaf33's avatar
i am like crying here. this was so beautiful. and i am just impressed. i can not say how beautiful that was to mee.....congradulations....you have made me cry.....i applaude thee...